Friday, September 14, 2007

Dear Lauren...



Lauren,
I just read over my last post and tears started streaming down my face when I read over your name. I notice I have put a brick wall up around my heart. I miss you and it hurts. The wait for you hurts and I want you to know I love you. When I am busy right now, I haven't forgotten about you. I pass your room each day and think of you. I sit at the computer that is in your playroom and think about you. I know this path to you, no matter how hard or how long, will be all worth it when I touch your face for the first time.

Landing...I Hope



I am landing on solid ground finally. The last month has been grueling, painful, and exhilirating all at the same time. Graduate school started immediately after our camping trip, my last post. I cannot believe how high tech everything has become in the five years I have been out of school. I was one of the only people not typing my notes on a laptop our first day. We also have these meetings called breeze meetings that remind me of the old Jetson's cartoons. They are meetings via computer using web cams.

In the middle of my crazy schedule came an opportunity to take a part-time adjunct faculty position for ASU. So, it looks like I will be teaching clinicals for ASU nursing students come next semester. I am excited for this opportunity. I will work my current job 2 days a week and then teach clinicals the other 12 hours. I know some of you may be wondering how this all fits in with Lauren arriving next year. But, beleive it or not, this will actually give me more flexibility in my schedule. I have also decided to live life in the now and when Lauren arrives, it will all work out.

I have learned not to work 6 twelve hour shifts prior to "immersion week" at school. I am taking a couple of PTO days next month. My life was so out of balance and I am slowly getting back into balance again. I have to say...my bloggy friends helped me so much this last month! At a time when I most needed it, I received emails from many of my closest bloggy fiends. Thank you so much. It reminded me again of what a great support group we have!

Well, I went to yoga this week, I read a book other than required school reading, and I am going out to dinner tonight with my husband tonight. AND, I've posted on my blog!! woohoo, I can see the ground now! :)