This week is so surreal. I am working 85 hours this week to get all my shifts in before I leave and to get as much clinical time in as well. So, it's helping to keep me sane by just waking, going to work, coming home, sleeping. As I go throughout my day, there are moments when it hits me that we are leaving next week and that I will be holding Lauren in 12 days and it just brings a smile to my heart. It is absolutely incredible to be finally reaching this point after this long, long wait. I started a journal 2 nights ago that I am writing letter's to Lauren in. I plan to continue this and give her the journal when she is older.
You know how there are different stages to pregnancy? well, I'm finding there are stages to adoption as well. My heart is changing from "I'm waiting" to "I'm a mom" and I find myself trying to do everything I can to help her lead the life God has chosen for her. My mom has been such an amazing role model and I think of her often and it reminds me of all she has done for her children throughout our lives. I am praying Jesus shows me how to lead and love Lauren the best that I can.
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I am so excited for you all !!! It is all in His hands and i know He will show you the way. Luv Ya! Sonja
Almost there girly..
Can't wait to see Lauren in your arms..
Have a fast week..
Gosh Darn it. You made me weepy. I'm heading out the door and now I have to get myself together again! :)
I knew life must be nuts for you right now! I can only dream of the kind of excitement your heart is feeling. To feel feelings that only a Mom can feel... What a dream come true. ONLY 12 days until you are holding Lauren. The moment is so close....
You are going to be an amazing Mom Mardi. I just know it. My heart is smiling for you!!!!
85 hours! I guess you can sleep on the plane. Only six sleeps...can you believe it?!?
You will be an amazing mother Mardi, I just know it. With a wonderful roll model and with your faith, being a mom will be a great journey for you. 6 sleeps!!!
You sound like a Mom to me!! The journal is such a thoughtful idea. Lauren is blessed to have both yourself and YOUR mom as role models in her life.
I hope the rest of your week flies by. I envy the fact that your packing for Lauren is complete. Mine is just begining...
I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL YOU BOARD THAT PLANE!!!
Praying for you to actually SLEEP during your "sleeps" left before you go get her!!!!! ; )
Wow, now you are down to one hand! What a great gift the journal will be for Lauren. We can't wait to see pictures of your family united at last!!!!
Suz
Hi Mardi!
Don't know if you got my email, but I just wanted to send you a message from you blog to let you know that the answer is yes. I'll help you out with your blog/shutterfly while you are gone. Just let me know what you want me to do! :)
Love, Steph
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