


I'm a huge fan of roller coasters and I love the feeling you get in your stomach when you drive on hilly roads... but lately I have been getting that feeling in my stomach just sitting still...and I feel like I am on the never ending roller coaster. :)
It's an amazing thing... becoming parents. There are definite up's and down's. I feel the up's whenever I am with my nephew Gavin. His smile is infectious and when he hugs you, there is no feeling like it. I can only imagine the day Lauren says "mommy" for the first time, or when she reaches out to me for a hug. I am not normally a person who tears up easily , but when I read of Gotcha days on other blogs or think of Lauren in my arms for the first time, tears flow.
I see the hard times of parenting when I see the lack of sleep on my co-workers faces who have been up all night with there little ones, hear a screaming child in a store, or a teenager rolling her eyes at her parents.
There are days when Dan and I talk excitedly about our future and vacations, trick or treating, daily life with our little Lauren. Then at times I am reminded that we will be going from double-income-go-anywhere-anytime....to single-income-watch-Barney-one-more-time.
Yet, my friends who had a baby with colic and didn't sleep for a year are expecting for the second time now. And we are saying, yes, let us on this roller coaster journey with unlimited unknowns. Becoming parents, it's truly a wild, well worth it, ride.
As all is quiet in Adoption, bloggy land, I thought I would share my thoughts lately.